hmmmm....

nw in sch having semestral project which will end at 3pm followed by a tutorial class which ends
2 hrs later......
so sianz nw...

later going to wrk at 6pm...
today will b my 5th last day at work liao le...

haiz...

will i b able to leave e place happily or in tears??...

hw i really wish u can understand my love 4 U...

though u may nt haf any feelings for mi...
i'll still love u e way i've always do.....
n i will wait n wait for u....
lyk i've always do...
n i'll always b by ur side supportin u whenever u r down...

am loss nw at wad i'm going to do after my last day at wrk...
esp abt my own finances...
wil i b able to fully concentrate on my studies given e free tym i'll get after i've quit my job or
will i spent my days rottin at hme doin nth???
i dunno....


haiz... 1:16 PM

hmmm....

going off to meet uncle at hgpt to go D&D together...
hope i can haf a unforgettable day bahx....

it's either do or die for mi today liao le..

shall update when i'm free or wad bahx..
tc 4:45 PM

hmmm...
jus wake up....
feelin super tired nw....

gg to sch frm 10am-4pm instead of until 6pm...

gg to skip e 2 hr lecture so as to went home early n prepare myself for e fairprice D&D...

haha...

nw really looking forward to it liao le..
haha...

my mood is back liao le...
hope today will b a gd day for mi..
gonna enjoy myself till e max...
n of cos...
take plenty of pics....
haha...

gonna prepare to go sch le...

tc everyone.. 8:32 AM

haiz...
didnt really slp well ytd nite...

feelin super moodless nw..
dun even haf e mood to eat during dinner tym jus nw...
haiz..
went wrk frm 7am-10pm again today le...


overall wrk was alrite bahx..
eat tons of snake today though it was jennifer on shift...

which was quite a suprise..
haah..
anyway.... gt my revenge on e promoter whu dare to show mi attitude ytd...
haha..
thks a lot to jennifer whu auto ask mi abt e promoter de wrking style..
haha...

vengeance is sweet... n i'm lovin it..

haha...

e only bad thing abt wrk today was ..... cant say it out...
haiz...

dunno wat else to say le..

to U...

if e guy dat u lyk accepts u...
i'll wish u all e best bahx...
i noe no matter hw hard i tried...
i'm still a nothing in ur heart...

no matter hw deep e wound is in my heart...
seein u happy is wad dat matters to mi le..
all e best for U bahx..

haiz...


counting dwn to my last day at wrk le...
5 more wrkin days left for mi le...

haiz...

tml is D&D le..
hope i can haf an unforgettable evening bahx....

hw i wish things will b gd for mi...
but..
fate doesnt give mi a chance...
guess no one will understand hw i'm feelin nw bahx...

haiz....

going to slp wif a heavy heart...

haiz.. 10:52 PM

hmmm...
wrk frm 7am-10pm today...

overall wrk was alrite bahx..
in e morning was quite relax wif wendy(one of my supervisor) helping mi out a lot as well as my junior by e name of zhiwei whu will hopefully be able to succeed mi after my last day at wrk next sun...

haha...

den in e afternoon...
wif ah cheng aunty ard(one of my fav aunties)...
it's fun...
n we kip joking ard wif other pple be it promoter or wad though it was jennifer(also my supervisor) whu wrk afternoon today...

n i'm loving it....

haha...
tink i'll b wrkin frm 7am-10pm tml bahx...

one more day to e D&D le..
lookin forward to it...

hope dat day will b a gd one for mi...

haha...

gg off to play some games 1st before i go slp...

tc everyone...

n stay happy always... =) 11:18 PM

hmmm....

today skip e lecture at 2-4pm to go wrk at 3pm...
haha...

dun feel lyk attending e lecture as even if i go...
i wont pay any attention top it de..

den reach wrkplace den found out dat jennifer is off today n wendy is wrking nite..
which to mi..
is a gd news as i can slack for all i care..

haha..

wrk was fun esp chattin wif e aunties n cracking jokes wif them...
yeah..

it's been a long tym since i last haf tis feelin liao le..
haha...


jus finished doin one of my homewrk n submit send it to teacher liao le...
haha...

tink of tml wrk 7am jiu sian le...
but nvm...

tis will b one of my last few days at wrk liao le...
gonna treasure every moments now le...

i've made a big decision to quit n though i regret it...
wat's done is done..

i'll face watever e problems which may arise n solve it..
as e sayin goes..

for every problems..
there's always a solution to it..


tc everyone.. 11:28 PM

hmmmm...
wake up at 8am...

didnt really slp well last nite..
sianz..

kip on tinking abt something...
haiz..

anyway... finally...
i can say my mood is startin to get better liao le...
hope it will carry on...

things haf not been gd for mi recently.....
resultin in mi fallin sick for e 1st tym n needin to see doctor n take 2 days MC jus b4 my birthdae on wed tis wk...

anyway..

nw startin to recover liao le..

gg to wrk later after sch ends at 4pm...
hope today can slack n eat snake...
haha...

dat's all for nw le..

gg go sch liao le.. 8:17 AM

hmmm...
ytd went to haf sakura buffet at tampines safra wif shiou,jack n bao kun..
haf a great tym over there..
haha..


at least can temporary 4get my sadness..
haha..

better den nth...

den today went sch frm 8am-11am

haha...
jus 3 hrs only...


wed n thurs is e best..
can go home early...
haha..


overall... sch was alrite today...
force myself to pay attention...

haha...

nw is jus prayin very hard for one of my birthdae wish to come true soon....which is e 1st one in my entry below..

haha...


pls... let it come true... 1:52 PM

hmmm... today went sch frm 9am-1pm...
simply is go sch n slack..
dun haf e mood to really pay attention in class...


today is finally my 19th birthdae liao le..

but..

my mood still nt back yet..
haiz...

hw i reali hope dat fate will grant mi my wish..
but...

i dun haf high hopes for it to happen bahx....

so i'm only left wif 4 more wrking days left liao le..
tym really flies...
haiz...

though i admit i'm startin to regret quittin liao le..
but..
wad's done is done
...
haiz..


later gg out ard 5pm to meet shiou,jack n bao kun for sakura...

hope i can temporary forget or hide my sadness bahx..

dunno wat else to say le...
................

n my birthday wish r as follows...
1: wish dat she can recover frm her sickness soon..
2: wish dat fate wont b so cruel to mi liao le..

dat's all bahx..
tc everyone...
=) 2:02 PM

haiz..

still feelin moodless nw...
though i've almost recovered frm my sickness liao le..

jus a few more hrs to go to my 19th birthdae...
haiz..

dunno wat else to say le bahx..

very moodless nw...
gg out to meet shiou n jack soon le...

tc pple... 7:44 PM

haiz...
feelin super moodless nw after readin someone entry...
haiz..

i noe it's all my fault..
n i admit it...

i'v tried my best le..
no more regrets shld one day i decide to leave tis world...

haiz..

tml is my birthdae le n yet i'm not feelin a bit happy at all...
y must it always be lyk tis to mi????
given a choice... i would rather chose to DIE den havin to tolerate all tis unhappiness jus days before my birthdae...
haiz..

luckily ytd halfway sch bused dwn to hougang polyclinic to see doc den take 2 days MC...
so today gt reason nt to go sch..

haiz..

nw jus prayin things will get better for mi...

dunno wad else to say le...

:'( 8:31 AM

jus wake up not too long ago...

didnt realli slp well ytd nite due to sickness...
feelin super tired n sick nw..
perhaps i've made a big mistake to go wrk when i'm still feelin sick bahx...

hope i'll recover frm it b4 my birthdae comes on wed...
later going to sch frm 1010-6pm..
sianz....

haf to drag myself to go again le...

dunno wad else to le..
jus hoping dat e someone whu is sick recover soon bahx...

my mood still nt back yet...

2 more days to my birthdae le.. 8:04 AM

hmmmm.....

didnt really sick well last nite due to sickness...
fever plus flu plus cough..
wad a deadly combo..

haiz..

wake up at ard 6.20am in e morning but still feelin sick..
tink of takin MC n dun go wrk..
but tink of not much pple wrking den in e end..
dragged myself to wrk frm 7am-3pm..
wrk was super tirin n bad for mi..
though i dun wish to say much...

while wrking..
kip on tinking abt someone...
hoping dat e someone is feelin fine etc..

3 more days to my 19th birthdae
n
4 more wrking days to my last day liao le...

haiz...

leave wif no regrets........

hate e feelin of being sick...
so sianz n makes mi more moodless...

haiz....

tml sch again...
dun even feel lyk going..

dunno wad to do liao le...

:'( 4:40 PM

haiz....
went for e ntuc de food safety level 2 course frm 9am-5pm...
overall was alrite bahx...
luckily gt one aunty in my branch i noe de go wif mi cos c her at e bus-stop while waitin for e bus 72 to come...
haha....
finish e exam within mins... only 30 MCQ...
so simple..
haha..
den rush back to HGPT after receiving a call frm jennifer jus as i was leavin e place to help her hang up some banners..
den in e end... she was e one whu completed it instead of mi..
haiz..

e reason is simple..
my legs was trembling strongly as i climb e ladder...
to tink at the end... i chose to give up....
when normally.. tis kind of things is jus a small piece of cake to mi..

haiz..

perhaps i'm no longer e one whu i'm used to b le bahx..

haiz..

feelin sick n tired nw liao le
four more days to my birthday le..
n yet..
dunno wad to say le...

feelin super moodless nw....

:'( 8:30 PM

haiz..
jus wake up not too long ago..
but going to queenstown soon for my hygiene course which starts at 9am soon le...

feeling sick+ tired + moodless nw....
hw to concentrate lyk dat??
haiz...


4 more days to my birthdae le...

:'( 7:11 AM

haiz..
jus came back frm wrk....
sch today was as usual....
didnt haf e mood to study or pay attention..
kip on tinking abt something...

my life sucks lyk hell...
how i wish i can end it...
gettin sick n tired of everything liao le..

my 19th birthdae is coming soon in 6 days tym n yet...
fate chose to b cruel to mi...

is tis the end of e road for mi???

haiz...

tml sch again...
sianz...

sat nid go e ntuc course in queenstown..
more sianz...

haiz...

only looking forward to tml outing wif shiou n ken after sch...
e rest..
dun care much le...

haiz...

:'( 10:40 PM

I'm sorry.... 10:13 PM

to dll...
i dunno whu e fcuk r u n yet u kip sayin dat u r someone whom i lyk..
all i can confirm is... u r nt e some whom i lyk...
oK???


haiz...
jus here to blog awhile..

today went sch for e sake of going...
dun even understand wad e teachers r toking esp during lab...
though only went frm 9am-1pm..
but e 3pm gt one make up lecture which i chose nt to go...
feelin moodless after all dat haf happen..
i'm sick n tired of everything liao le...


can i give up??

pple haf been tellin to give up on HER...
but it's impossible..
e only way for mi to do so is to die...
U're the one i LOVE...n i will prove it to U de...

everydae every moment...
i'll b hoping dat U would give mi a chance.....


3:52 PM

sianz...
going to sch was a waste of tym for mi today..
didnt manage to realli understand wat e teachers r toking...
haiz...

tink of tml jiu sianz le..
will b endin sch at 5pm instead of 1pm thks to e make-up lecture...
wth...

gg back to wrk on thursday after on which will b one of my last days at wrk bahx...

very tired already...

even if fate is cruel to mi..
i will not bow dwn to it de.....
i'll still believe in it strongly lyk i always do...

all e events dat haf happen in e past yr between U n mi haf given mi extra strength n motivation to carry on...

jus wanna be by ur side when u r feelin dwn.... 10:39 PM

haiz.....
jus wake up not too long ago...
sch startin at 11am...

haiz..
seriously not in a right frame of mind to study after wad happen..
haiz..

8 more days to my birthdae liao le..
not in e mood to celebrate liao le bahx..

sick n tired of all dat haf happen to mi recently..

how i wish U can give mi a chance??? 9:24 AM

haiz....
seein U lyk tis...
hw i wish i can help U....n cheer U up..
wad a failure i am..
haiz... 10:01 PM

haiz....
today sch was a total failure...
didnt haf e mood to pay attention in class at all...
my mind was tinking abt somethin else all day long...

y mus fate be so cruel to mi...??..
for 2 yrs straight, jus days b4 my birthday...
there's always some unhappy events for mi...
how i wish my wish can come true..
but :'(

y is my life always lyk tis de??...
i'm very tired of all tis liao le.......
haiz...

hoping dat U r fine every moment.... 9:27 PM

haiz... just wake up not too long ago..
gg to sch soon...
dun feel lyk gg to sch today but i cant.....


feelin very moodless nw...
my heart is in pieces nw....
i'm hurt..........................

haiz..

y mus FATE always be so cruel to mi everytime???...
esp nw when my 19th birthdae is jus 9 days away...
i'm gettin sick n tired all all tis liao le....

y mus U always say dun waste my tym on u n dat there're lots of better gals out there...
U're the one whom i LOVE...

i will wait for u all my life n i promise U tis....

everythin dat i do is becos of U...
even to go to e d&d.. i get scold n nag by jennifer...but for e sake of U...
it's alrite...
haiz...

pls dun doubt my love for U...
i've already tried my very best le...
when e time comes..i'll give up everything..

='( 8:10 AM

back frm wrk n super tired nw...

today again wrk 7am-10pm....
all becos of wantin to c U...
left only 6 more wrkin daes to my last day at wrk le...
perhaps when i leave e place le... i will give up on U..
since dat's wad u always wan mi to do...
it'll b real hard for mi to give up on U....even after i leave e place le..
if U r readin tis now...
all i wan to say is...

wo shi zhen de ai ni!!


11:32 PM

hmmmm....
today wrk 7am-10pm...
actualli wan wrk until 5pm only...
but e thought of seein u frm afar as well as jennifer wrking morning today makes mi decide to wrk till 10pm today...

tml wrkin at 7am again le..
so sick of wrking dat timing liao le..
hw i wish i can start wrk at 2pm..
den can slp longer...

haiz...

luckily jennifer is off tml so hopefully she dun come back den i can b e king n do watever i lyk..
my way, my style....

haha....
will b prayin very hard for it de..

tink most prob will b wrking till 5pm tml...
dun wanna tired myself out at jus e start of my final sem..
nt taking any risks anymore le...

10 more days to my birthdae le....
hopin dat e wish will come true...
though it's quite impossible but i wont give up...

tinking of U n hoping u're fine everyday.... 12:12 AM

sianz....
today went sch ard 9.30am for e 10.10am de lesson den in e end...
teacher come n say dun haf...
sianz...
den gt 3 hrs break until 1pm..
so sianz...
nth much to do..
anyway... end sch ard 3.40pm den rush dwn to pt to pass one aunty something...
den after dat... walk home in e rain....
haha...

all i can say is...
since e start of e sch until now... been havin headache everydae in e morning which may sometyms drags till e afternoon...
jialat... it's affecting my concentration...
kip feelin very sleepy....
die liao la..
nw is jus e wk 0 only..
still gt ard 16 more wks to go...

kip forcin myself not to tink of U in sch when in lesson tym...
but i failed to do so everytym...
U're always on my mind every now n then....
though i may often tink of U...
i'll not lose my concentrations while studying..

n

I BELIEVE IN FATE..... 11:37 PM

hmmm... jus came back frm sch only...
went sch frm 8am-ard 10am....
reach hme by 1015..
haha..

e rest of e lab r all cancelled for tis wk only.....
yeah...

ytd didnt online at nite cos feelin tired after playin bbal wif my elder brother frm ard 4pm-7pm plus...
kip on playin one on one wif him...
though i gt trash by him most of e tym....
but it's okay...
at least when i noe if i give my very best... i can still win him or lose by only a few pts...
haha...

today morning in sch havin e headache for e fourth straight tym since e start of e sch le...
things arent looking gd at tis moment...
but i wont bow dwn to it...

i'll make sure i end my last sem wif a bang...
haha...

going to kip tis fire burning for as long as i can......
i will b e best someday....
i've made a promise to myself dat i'm goin to do well for tis sem...
n i will do it...

believing in myself...

as well as believing in FATE....

I'll b waiting for U even after i've left e place de...i promise U.... 10:41 AM

hmmmm.....
2nd day of sch...

was a quite relax one..
haha...
unlike ytd......
but e headache is still there...
sianz...

things aren't looking gd for mi at e moment...
my luck is dwn lyk fcuk..
sianz..

tml class starts at 8am but end at 1pm..
haha...
tink i'll b slacking at hme tml..
haha...


anyway... i've made a promise to myself to do well for tis sem n i will achieve it at all cost...
i'm beginning to feel e pressure liao le..
but tis tym... i'll handle it well unlike last tym where i failed badly to do so...
resulting in mi almost failing some of my modules...

yup...
n one things for sure...
for every problems... there's a solution...

tis is one important thing i learn frm my attachment...

=)

haha..

going to slp soon le...

even if i'm in sch studyin...
U're always on my mind...... 10:36 PM

hmmm....
finally gt tym to post le...
todae sch haf finally started for mi le...

start at 1010 n end at 1800...
sianz...

1st practical lesson in e morning my headache jiu come le..
so sianz..
haiz...

den gettin worst as e day pass...
so sianz...
hate it...
didnt realli haf e mood to concentrate...
feel lyk slping for e whole dae...


sianz...

guess i'll b going to e D&D on e 29th bahx...
haha...
hope i can enjoy myself dat day....

n my last day of wrk will b extended till 4th NOV bahx...

haha...
cherish all e moments b4 my last day come...
perhaps i've made e wrong decision to quit le bahx,,,
things arent lookin gd for mi nw...

but nvm... wad's done is done.....

haiz...

dat's all for today liao bahx...
tc everyone...

to U...
even if u gt no feelings for mi..
i'll still LOVE U de...
n i'll wait for u de... 10:06 PM

hmmmm...
today will nt say much...

tis morning went back sch plae bball den in e end... everyone of one us get sun burn...
sianz..

hate dat feeling..

den ard evening went compass meet shiou n wei heng for dinner at pizza hut..
haha...
had a great tym eatin n chattin wif them esp wif wei heng..
long tym nvr see him liao le...

haha..

sianz..

wrkin tml again le...
n sch startin next mondae le..

haiz...

so sianz..
haven rest n enjoy enuff yet..
haiz..

hope i can extend my last day so as to go to e d&d...
n thks boss for helping mi send e email to e HQ requesting to extend mi last day allowing mi to go d&d...
so nw is jus waitin for e reply frm e HQ...

realli hope dat i can go...

gd nite pple...

n yes...
U're always on my mind... 12:51 AM

hmmmm.... here to blog before i go back sch to play bball wif jack n his frens...

haha...

hope i can extend my last day at wrk n go for e D&D...

dat's y i'm prayin very hard nw...

shall update later bahx..
tc everyone...


no matter where i am...or wad i'm doing... U're always on my mind... 9:09 AM

hmmmmm....
17 more days to last dae of wrk le n
6 more working days...

looking forward to K-box n pool wif jack n shiou tml...
hope can enjoy myself....
n temporary forget all e sadness in mi....

b4 i go slp...
all i wan to sae now is...

U're e only one dat i love n no matter how long it is...
i Will wait for U...
jus hoping dat everydae will be a good day for U...

gd nitex pple... 2:16 AM

18 more days to my last dae at wrk le...
n 6 more working days le...

haiz...

hope i'll nt regret quittin it..
mother been naggin at mi almost everydae ever since e day i signed e resignation letter abt money matters...
so sick n tired of it le...


wad's e worst dat can happen to mi???
death... n i dun fear it at all...

though i admit there're plenty of regrets...
but nvm... i'll try nt to tink abt it...

sianz...

dunno wad else to post le..
....


tinking of U now.... 1:42 PM

haiz...
super tired nw.... work 7am-5pm todae....
den reach hme...
rest a while den eat dinner den went compass meet shiou at ard 8.30pm lyk dat,.,,
slacked till ard 10.30pm den jiu rush home n online...
haha..


20 more days to my last day at wrk le...
or rather...
6 more days at wrk bahx...

haiz...

will i regret after i quit...???...
i dunno...

headache...

sch starting soon le....on e 15th...
so fast...'
didnt really enjoyed myself nor rest enuff.....

jialat...
things nt lookin gd for mi at e moment...
but i wont give up..
haha...

dat's all for todae liao bahx..

U r always on my mind.... 12:38 AM